THE BRIDGE
OF DREAMS--THE COUNTESS ACT II--THE MARRIAGE
OF TRUE MINDS [Jack with Henry and Shoko in Jack's
New York apartment.] JACK I
spent many hours talking with the countess about things she had me reading, but
soon more than a month had passed and I had done almost nothing on the screenplay
of her life. HENRY Shoko
must have been quite a distraction. [Takes her hand.] JACK
[Smiling.] We did spend a lot of time together . . . and
a lot of time with Christine. It was idyllic. That's when I first
began to call it Shangri La. We all read a lot. The major assignment
the countess gave us the last month of the year was to read Lady Murasaki's The
Tale of Genji, running to about 1100 pages in the Waley translation, which
I read, while Shoko and the countess read it in Tanizaki's modern Japanese.
She said, "You can't understand the medieval Noh drama, or Tanizaki, or Mishima,
if you don't know The Tale of Genji, Jack. Let's set it as
our goal to finish crossing 'The Bridge of Dreams,' the last of the six books,
on January 1st, the date in Japan for settling accounts"--which we did.
When I asked Shoko how she'd come to be so close to the countess--almost her alter
ego--she insisted that there was no mystery to the relationship at all.
SHOKO There was no mystery.
I'd been employed by the countess in Japan, as companion, because my English was
good and I could also read and speak French. I'd been with her ever since.
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JACK The countess
was the perfect hostess, particularly at mealtime, orchestrating the conversation.
She spent whole half days reading, then liked to talk about what she'd read.
She also liked us to read plays together. I remember the three of us reading
Miss Julie one afternoon--at my suggestion. She said she'd
played Julie in Germany, under the direction of Max Reinhardt, with whom she'd
been living at the time. But mostly she might quiz me on books she'd assigned,
or tell some scandalous story about her and the author. It wasn't until
I'd been there almost three months that I decided I should go talk to Randall--about
his assignment. I wasn't spending his money, for I hadn't submitted a single
claim, had been living on the countess as if she'd been my mother. I just
needed to make sure there was still a world out there. The countess thought
it was a good idea, too, "Go talk to Randall? Why yes, Jack. And invite
him out here." I called to tell him I was coming. RANDALL
[As Jack enters his office.] How are you, Jack?
It looks like life with Natasha agrees with you. You say you haven't done
much on a screenplay. Well, I think she wants the story told, Jack.
She just wants to be sure you're the right one to tell it. JACK
Well, she is likely to control the process, all right--just
use me as a medium. I see the story as framed by two episodes in Japan--one
with Tanizaki and one with Mishima, maybe opening with the countess as an old
woman, then flashing back to when she was young. But I hardly know what
comes in between--either in a Russia shaping the young woman, or in Hollywood--with
Barrymore, Valentino, and Fairbanks. So I have little sense of plot--just
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RANDALL Well, it
sounds to me like it's working, Jack and she knows best. I'm in no
hurry. Take another week. [Laughs again.] But wait a minute!
I do have to find work for my new discovery--the young woman I've brought out
from New York for a screen test, thinking she might be just the one to play the
young Natasha. Did I tell you about her? [Jack shakes his head, "No."]
Because you haven't been around. I'll call and see if she's still here.
[Telephones.] Is Lady Macbeth still there? Good! Send her up, will
you? [To Jack.] I saw her in Cat on a Hot Tin Roof,
in Massachusetts, then in an off Broadway Macbeth I made a special
trip East to see last month. I'd like to see her comic range, and close
up potential--but know I want her. She can be as provocative as Natasha
was in her prime--and still is! I swear in the Macbeth I thought it was
Natasha at times, that I was seeing a ghost. Lady Macbeth was one of her
great roles, you know. [Jack jumps up as Betty walks in.]
BETTY [Gasps, then laughs.] Well,
Jack . . . of all things! RANDALL [Smiling.]
I thought you two might know each other. BETTY
Worse than that . . . I think we're still married. You
haven't divorced me, have you, Jack? In Mexico? [Pause.] How's
Laura? And Christine? [To Randall.] Jack got custody of our
child. And the baby sitter. [Randall laughs at this.] I finally
did a Macbeth, Jack--with Jordan--in New York! In a little
theatre Henry found for us. He arranged for us to do Miss Julie
there last year, and for me to do Cat on a Hot Tin Roof in Massachusetts
this summer. So it's working, Jack! Jordan is 27
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wonderful to be on stage
with, but, right now, is off playing the Fool to a friend's King Lear in England--which
gave me the chance to come see Hollywood. [Randall just smiles, as if none
of this has anything to do with him.] But how about you? I knew you'd
come West with Laura. How's she doing? JACK
Well, Laura has left me, too. Ran off with Tom Hazen.
That's why I'm now living with a seventy-year-old Russian woman.
BETTY Oh, Jack, that's impossible!
But Tom is out here now, isn't he? [Looks at him soberly.] But . . . is
Christine still with you? JACK Yes--you
left her in my care, didn't you? And now she seems to have the grandmother
neither of us could provide. BETTY
The countess? Well, Mr. Best, it's quite a surprise meeting
"my husband" here. [To Jack.] So you must be doing the screen-play
on this Russian countess when she was my age? I'll have to try to win you
back from this charming old lady. [To Randall.] How bizarre!
She sounds like quite a woman. And you're doing a film on her early years
in Hollywood? Like old times--historical drama, with a notorious seductress,
from the pen of John Curtis. [Laughs.] And Jack, I hope you've been
tending to Christine's moral education, as you've been living in sin with one
woman then another. [Randall laughs.] JACK
Christine's doing fine. But I have no script. I've only
got a smattering of incident to build on so far. I still need a plot line,
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and
the countess keeps leading me away from one. I need help to get her to bring
those Hollywood years into focus. RANDALL
Exactly! I don't mean to rush you, old man, but yes, it
begins to be time. If we put Betty under contract, it's that film I want
to do. And, Jack, Natasha wants you to bring Betty back with you. You could
swing by her hotel and pick up her things. You're at the Wiltshire, aren't you?
[Betty nods.] BETTY [Later,
in the car.] I hope you know there was nothing personal in leaving you,
Jack. We'll work together just fine. I'm coming into your world, so
I'll need your help. I am working mostly with Jordan now . . . which is
what I wanted. But he wants to do a Hamlet, with me as Ophelia
. . . which I don't want to do. Henry's our agent. He encouraged Jordan
to go to England, then me to come out here, for the increased professional credentials.
[Staring out the car window.] And I'm enchanted by California. I've
never been here before. For me, Hollywood and a screen test is a dream come
true. It's the compound myth of Middle America--Hollywood and Broadway--becoming
a star either place seems so impossible. I belong on the stage--live theatre.
I'm sure of that! I love it, Jack. Working in films? I don't
know. But I expect to enjoy it. [As they pull into the long drive.]
My God, I didn't know that places like this actually existed. It is
like a movie set. Did she have it built? JACK
One of her friends did. But it suits her. There'll
just be six of us here: the countess, Christine and me, Thomas--chauffeur, gardener,
cook--Shoko, and you. There's plenty of room--though I don't know how I'll survive
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BETTY Poor Jack
. . . I can see you've been suffering. But have you been a good mother to
Christine? [Sees Christine, playing in the garden.] But I'll bet that's
her. [To Christine.] You must be Christine. [Christine turns and runs,
shouting for Shoko.] COUNTESS [Who
has been standing by the library windows, then steps out to meet them.]
Well, Jack, Randall told me you were bringing an interesting young woman, in whom
I might be able to see a picture of my own youth. I'd be flattered to think
so. But you seem to have frightened off our little Christine. [To
Shoko, as she comes in with Christine.] Shoko, this is . . . Betty?
Could you help get her settled in her room? [Shoko bows.] JACK
[After they have left, with hesitation.] I think I should
tell you that Betty is my wife . . . still my wife . . . Christine's mother.
COUNTESS I've heard something
of this from Randall, and can see the resemblance. Randall also says she's
an exciting young actress. And I hope you know I mean you no harm, Jack.
[Jack nods, as she muses for a moment.] What a beautiful woman she is .
. . a commanding presence, like Nefertiti. We'll talk, let her read,
let her sit in the garden, get acquainted with Shoko and me, and re-acquainted
with Christine . . . and you. Why not? JACK
I don't see Betty as a sitter in the garden. She'll get
impatient, want to see a script, or be looking for action somewhere else.
When Jordan gets back to New York, she'll want to be there. She's a stage
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on the mesmerism of the
countess, however. She was at her most gracious at dinner, responding to
Betty's questions, making comparisons with her own experience, in playing Lady
Macbeth and Miss Julie, for example. Betty began by asking questions clearly
designed to get some sense of the part she'd be expected to play, but before long
was just exchanging theatre stories. They began talking about Ibsen roles--Hedda
Gabler, Nora, Mrs. Alving. The countess had played them all, and Betty said
she looked forward to doing Hedda Gabler some day. [To Shoko.] You entered
the discussion more than when the countess was talking to me--as one of the women--while
I just sat and listened. Then Betty looked at the countess, at me, took
a deep breath, and came out with it. BETTY
I should tell you that I was Jack's Nora. He directed
me in the role . . . perhaps too well, for, at the end of the play, I left him.
And Christine. If he hasn't told you, I'm Christine's mother.
COUNTESS Perhaps I should have
told you that Randall, then Jack, had told me this. Jack and I have become
very open with one another, and I'm happy to see that that's your inclination
as well. [As if that settled that question.] And you've just been in Macbeth.
I'd like to know what you think about Shakespeare generally. BETTY
I didn't take to Shakespeare easily. But, since Macbeth,
I've begun reading all his plays. The poetry takes getting used to--so I'm
working with a few of the sonnets . . . "Shall I compare thee to a summer's day,"
"That time of year thou mayst in me behold," "My mistress' eyes are nothing
like the sun," "Let me not to the marriage of true minds admit impediments."
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COUNTESS
"The marriage of true minds." What a beautiful, Platonic,
idea. But that line isn't iambic, is it? And swept you right on into the
next. Can you recite the whole sonnet, to humor an old lady?
JACK [To Henry--but do this.]
Betty attempted to, and, where she forgot, the countess picked it up, with me
prompting in a place or two, so we were able to work out the whole poem.
At the countess's suggestion, they recited it together. Then the countess
asked her what that sonnet was about. BETTY
Well, about love . . . and marriage? Let me see. That
love is "an ever-fixed mark," is permanent, like the navigator's north star, not
a thing that passes, like "rosy lips and cheeks." JACK
[To Henry--again.] Betty was thinking her way through
her answer. Then it was as if I weren't there at all as Betty began to talk
to the countess about her decision to leave Christine with me. She quoted
Polonius's lines on being true to herself as if she were scoring points with more
Shakespeare--then about priority in love, and the artist's commitment--accepted
for the gander, why not for the goose? She said she knew me to be a man
with whom it was safe to leave a child, while her first love was theatre--that
she'd not only do it again, but definitely wasn't coming back to be a wife and
mother. BETTY [Laughs.]
Let Jack sue me for child support--once I can I'll be happy to pay it. It
bothered me at first that I felt so little sense of loss in leaving them . . .
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friendly interest in what
they're doing. In my professional relationships, I get close to the people
I'm working with. We become very close while we're doing a play.
That's the marriage of true minds. It's only as I think of working with
Jack on this film that I get excited about being with him again. Sorry,
Jack. [Laughs.] I know he's a good writer. That's how we got
involved in the first place. Christine is our scarlet letter, after all.
I'll let him explain that. [Laughs.] But [Directly to Jack.] getting
married was probably a mistake. JACK
[Again.] Then, about a week later, Betty sought
me out in the garden, where I was reading through the Japanese literature the
countess had in translation--was up to the Noh plays. I'd seen Betty settle
in, too--to living in a place that seemed almost out of time, and said the countess
should establish the place as a sanitarium for theatre people, functioning as
resident therapist. BETTY Yes,
a remarkable woman, and how apt to speak of her as a therapist. I'd like
to talk to you about a session we had this morning. I woke early, and was
sitting in the armchair by the window, just looking out and thinking--about your
countess and me. I watched the dawn gradually bring color to this garden.
I could see past the rolling hills and wheat fields to where the highway and railroad
cut across the valley, two parallel lines running through random undulation, as
headlights gradually went out on cars I couldn't even hear. I could hear
a train--one I couldn't see--echoing in the distance. You'll have to come
share the experience with me some morning, Jack. JACK
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BETTY I'd
seen a light go on in the countess's room, and wondered why she'd be up.
Then, as dawn was breaking, her light went off, and I found myself wishing her
a peaceful hour of sleep, imagining her head on the pillow, thinking of her as
a dear, good old woman. But seeing her light go on, then off, made me realize
I hadn't turned my light on at all. I wondered if what I'd been doing was
trying to conjure up the countess's past, sitting there in the dark, to have my
dark imaginings gradually fade from mind as it became light, until I was left
with the image of an old woman asleep. I thought, "Well, here I am . . .
but why?" I should be studying old movies, talking to people who knew her
then. She says, "No hurry," but, if I don't get busy, soon I'll be too old
for the part, too. Then I heard a footstep . . . then a light but firm rap
on my bedroom door. Do I have you in suspense, Jack? Who do you suppose
it was? [Not to spoil it for her, Jack shrugs his shoulders.] A voice,
calling my name, like an echo out of the past. [Pause.] It was the
countess. COUNTESS I
saw you sitting here by the window, Betty, and thought we might talk. I'm
frequently up much of the night, too, reading. But it's also a good time
to talk. So let's look out over this lovely scene while we talk about things
of interest to both of us. BETTY Fine.
I try to imagine what this world must have been like for you at my age . . . or
when you first came to Shangri La. COUNTESS
That's Jack's name for this place, isn't it? I like that.
I do have reservations about a film story of my life. My earlier life was
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Kennedy's father sometimes
stayed here. He wasn't the great lover he thought he was, but he certainly
helped with my investments. [Pause.] I'm also concerned about someone
else pretending to be me. It's hard to accept that I'm not qualified to
play myself as I once was. It brings the reality of my age home to me with
more force than I'm used to. But I think Randall was very perceptive in
judging you to be the one. And one of the things that appeals to me is that
I think you might find an important part of yourself in trying to find that me
of long ago. I'm not sure how useful I'll be, for my memories are as much
a fiction as anything you or Jack may imagine. It'll be Jack's problem to
find a narrative line in my life. Then you'll have the problem of character.
Well, who are you? If I begin to see that you are what I once was much more
closely than I am . . . I both envy you and pity you for it. Tell me what
you think. BETTY I'm
only sure of who I am when I'm well into a role. COUNTESS
And do you think Jack understands you? I know you've given
striking performances in Strindberg and Shakespeare, from what Randall has said,
and reviews he's sent. And Jack calls you the perfect Hester Prynne.
But now, tell me about yourself. BETTY
Since you grew up in a European court, we could hardly have
been more different at eighteen. I grew up in Dodge City, Kansas.
In high school, I was a football and basketball cheerleader, and in the plays.
I read a lot stories in women's magazines, and novels, not plays.
It was an adventure to go as far as Kansas City or Denver. My father left
us when I was in junior high. My mother supported us by renting rooms in
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big
old house and selling real estate--then sent me to college. But the University
of Kansas was a whole new world to an 18-year-old girl from Dodge City, and when
I first met Jack I thought he knew everything. He'd lived in cities, been
in a war, was writing and directing plays, was older. So I was in love with
Jack when we were married--or before we were married--when Christine was conceived.
But I was at least as much in love with Jordan . . . or the adventure of theatre.
When Jack took me to Wellington, I felt sidetracked. I had to get out of
there . . . or die. So I left Jack to go to New York, to Jordan.
COUNTESS And how do you feel about
being a mother? BETTY I
never hesitated about leaving Christine with Jack. I knew that my reality
could be found only in the theatre. And I couldn't take her with me.
My experience tells me I was right. What puzzles me now is why I'm spending
this time here--absenting myself for so long from the world of illusion--from
my reality. COUNTESS I
think you may have come to a major turning point in your life. I remember something
of the kind in my life--when I realized that a Chaplin or Barrymore might be charming
for a weekend , but had nothing permanent to offer. Have you read
any Plato? BETTY Plato!
Who wanted to run the poets out of town as a bad influence on the young?
I remember people in a cave who took shadows on the wall for reality--the way
I do the play I'm in. A philosopher got out and saw the sun was making the
shadows. When he came back to tell those people, I think they killed him.
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COUNTESS
Jack is very fond of Plato . . . as I am. And you may
be more inclined to philosophy than Jack is. I know you're reading Shakespeare,
who is close to Plato in philosophy, I think, and Plato, in his creation of
characters, is close to Shakespeare. The Apology, Crito,
and Phaedo is a dramatic trilogy, and the Symposium
has many memorable characters. In trying to get to know the woman I was
in those "Hollywood years" read a little Plato. That's when I began serious
reading of the dialogues. It helped save me from drowning in the glitter
. . . or released me from the cave. Read some Plato. Then we'll
talk about it. BETTY Is
this a new version of Stanislavski, re-creating the intellectual experience in
feeling one's way into a role. COUNTESS
One way to think of it. Here's another. Jack helped
you discover theatre. You must now recognize the trappings of this illusion
better than he does. Why not go back into the cave and lead Jack out, as
you may begin to feel that the professional theatre, too, can be a trap.
If not, you will. How well I know that feeling. Like the feeling of
the confirmed alcoholic, depending on the high of acting, yet knowing that your
spirit thirsts to transcend illusions that have transcended illusions. I
say, "Read Plato." Begin with the Apology. [Smiles.]
You may hate Plato even more by the time we have you on a film set, but I'd like
to see you brooding on matters metaphysical. BETTY
But I assume you'll let me ask questions. I think Shakespeare
was a man of the theatre, for example--not a student of the classics. So
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COUNTESS A good
way to begin! Well, there are references to classical mythology, to Virgil,
and particularly Ovid, everywhere in his plays, and your Troilus and Cressida
derives from Homer. His ethics and metaphysics are both Greek, not Christian,
and, even where his lyric voice is Romantic, the content is likely to be Greek.
Wait until we get to the Symposium. You'll see how Platonic
you already are, my dear. Then revive your marriage to Jack--to tell my
story. It has little to do with sex--for this Jack and you don't even have
to be male and female. BETTY I
see what you mean. In the arts there can be a union of souls, irrespective
of sex, giving birth to their child, and that child be more real than a living
child . . . like Christine. COUNTESS
And must the marriage partner even be alive? Suppose you
fall in love with Shakespeare, who died 350 years ago, or Socrates, who died in
399 BC. You meet Shakespeare in a conception of Cleopatra quite different
from the historical Cleopatra--and think of Shakespeare as seeing his very idea
of Cleopatra in you. Isn't that a marriage of true minds? Or, as you
think ideas that Plato thought Socrates thought, the father of his ideas becomes
the father of yours as well. That, too, is a marriage of true minds.
In Japanese literature, you'll find the great classical novel, The Tale
of Genji, was written by a woman, Murasaki Shikibu, stories from which
are picked up in those Noh plays Jack is reading just as slices of Homer were
in the Greek plays. BETTY Yes,
with a playwright, we actors actually do bring characters he imagined to life.
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COUNTESS I
like your earlier idea, that there's a higher reality involved. The imaginative
vision is pure and eternal . . . like love. One more thing--then I'll leave
you. If you recapture the spirit of the young woman you'll be preparing
to portray, you will be, at the time you project an image from that huge screen,
much closer to her than I am now. But I still honor her, and will think
of myself as your partner in that procreation. If you and Jack can find
her together, I hope I can help remove the impediments in that marriage of true
minds. Then capturing her on film would mean you and Jack collaborating
to give birth to me--as I once was. Doesn't that sound like a strange, perverse
idea? BETTY [To Jack.]
On that note, she left me looking out of my window. Later I went by the
library and picked up Plato's Apology. I've read it, and,
now, here I am to have you explain it to me. JACK
[To Henry.] I didn't "explain" it to her, but we did talk
about Socrates' conception of the philosopher--and the countess, who now seemed
committed to making the film--because she liked Betty. And Betty and I became
more open with one another--in part due to Plato, and his modern priestess, the
Countess Rostovna. We began to talk about why the countess was so attracted
to Plato. Betty wondered if it were just her European education, with its emphasis
on the classics. [To Betty.] That's part of it, but can't be all.
It's the idealism, I think. I begin to realize that's what I did when you
left me--I idealized you! As Dante did Beatrice, Petrarch did Laura.
What the writers of all the sonnet sequences did. You remember the note
you left me when you and Henry left for New York? I saved that note, and
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BETTY No.
I remember wanting to help you accept that there could be no future for the two
of us. Beyond that, I don't remember. JACK
You told me real life would never offer what was available only
in books--or on the stage--which is profoundly true. But let me tell you
how I apply this to the way I feel about you now. The countess was talking
about Mishima's Forbidden Colors at lunch, how, in the last chapter,
the old author, dying, is talking to his idea of Yuichi, as if it, not the actual
Yuichi, were there with him. Let me do that--talk to my idea of you.
Indulge my whim. Henry James has a short story, "Maud-Evelyn," which catches the
psychology of this experience. Marmaduke (I love James' names) meets
an American couple traveling in Europe. They'd lost their daughter, Maud
Evelyn, but were keeping her memory alive--and, more than that, were imagining
her growing up, as she would have if she'd lived. Marmaduke gets caught
up in their imaginative experience--and finally marries Maud Evelyn! Well,
you're my Maud Evelyn--my Beatrice, my Stella--the idea that gives much of what
I value a local habitation and a name. And how much more comfortable it
is to have that kind of imaginative control over your woman. We all face
disillusionment, but, as Henry once said, wisdom is reaffirming illusion in the
face of disillusionment--since the illusion is the best--is all--you can have.
That's what I've done with you, Betty, taken my idea of you, after the traumatic
accommodation to reality you forced upon me, and refined it. Then I've come
to live with that . . . happily ever after. That's no doubt what Laura sensed
. . . and why she left me. BETTY Well
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JACK The
sonneteer's mistress has always had that problem. BETTY
Please finish your tea, Jack. Then come along with me
. . . JACK [To Henry.]
She led me up to my room, where, in the middle of the afternoon, she refuted Plato,
Sidney, and all of my best theory, with a passion as open and genuine as that
she'd given expression to beneath the scaffold as a college girl. Then she
moved her things into my room, and we were back together as man and wife--the
reality upon which the ideal was based. SHOKO
[Laughing.] But do you remember the dream Betty told us
. . . about being out fishing with her father? Tell it to Henry.
JACK I think so. We were
sitting on the patio after lunch, and the countess was telling stories about writers
she'd known. Betty remarked that one of her favorite authors was Franz Kafka.
COUNTESS Well, I lived in Prague
for a time, saw him frequently. He was only a few years older--and he died
very young, you know. BETTY Well
what do you think of The Metamorphosis? It must be the product
of a dream. I had a strange dream last night. It woke me! You
know that feeling. You realize you're awake, safe, no longer confronted
by the terror in the dream--not really turned into a cockroach. Maybe you
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COUNTESS Tell us,
dear, and we'll try. We've all read enough Freud. BETTY
At first I thought I was out in a boat with my father.
I know we were in Minnesota, because of the techniques we used in the lake fishing
up there. We'd cast in toward the shore from a boat maybe a hundred feet
out. The vegetation was heavy along the shore, and to fish from the bank
was almost impossible. Using anti-snag hooks, and minnows or large worms
as bait, we cast into the weeds and lily pads near the shore, then began reeling
in. If we got a bite, we'd reel in the first five feet quickly, to get the
fish out of the weeds, even at the risk of pulling the hook loose. My father
caught some nice fish this way. Bass and pike, I think. But I'd catch
fish, too, and when I did he'd brag on me to everyone. But I hadn't seen
his face. I was watching my own line. It seemed snagged, and I thought,
"No, not again! In among the reeds." Then it came through smoothly, and
I knew, by the weight on the line, it was the biggest fish I'd ever hooked.
But why wasn't my father coaching me? I glanced around quickly, ready to
call for help. What I saw surprised me. [To the countess.] It
was you there with me! In the other end of the boat, sitting serenely, looking
directly at me, not at the fish, and smiling what seemed to be gentle encouragement.
COUNTESS When it comes to fishing,
all I can do is smile encouragement. BETTY
I hardly had time to wonder why you were there, for I began
to see a form in the water, and was pulling, hard, thinking, "Don't lose him now!"
And the line coming out of the water was getting the skirt of my dress wet.
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first indistinct, then suddenly recognizable.
It was your face, Jack, coming up out of the water at me as you would when we
went swimming together before we were married. [To the countess.]
And when I saw the anguish on his face I woke up. Then I looked at Jack, asleep
there in the bed, and--as usual--saw perfect contentment. It's been a long
time since I've dreamed about you, Jack. [Laughs, then to the countess.]
And I've never dreamed about you before. My father wasn't there in the dream,
only the environment we'd shared. What did it mean for you to have taken
his place? That I seemed to be catching Jack . . . wanted to--then was shocked
by it? What did the expression on his face represent? I've never seen
that expression on Jack's face. What does he stand for in the dream?
I need him to help me find something important, that the countess says may be
available through Plato. Is that it? JACK
[To Henry.] I said I should have been in the boat with
her, helping to catch the countess, if it were to apply to our situation.
I wondered if she'd actually had such a dream, since Betty liked to play games.
The countess began to speak of dreams in Shakespeare, and in Dostoevski's Crime
and Punishment, of ambiguity in Kafka's The Metamorphosis.
"But how do I know I'm awake now?" she asked. BETTY
That's what I thought lying there in bed this morning.
Suppose I look down and find I have turned into a cockroach? Or, like the
Chinese philosopher who dreamed he was a butterfly, discover I'm a butterfly dreaming
I'm a Chinese philosopher? I finally got up and took a shower--then,
since I began to see signs of daylight, decided to take a walk out here in the
garden. And a walk in the garden did seem to be what I needed. Again,
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I
almost woke you, Jack, to come walk with me, but, instead, decided to think about
Diotima and Socrates. "A good exercise," I thought, "and the countess will
be questioning me about their relationship." Now, having purged myself of
my dream, and having contemplated Socrates in the dawn's early light, I'm ready
for your questions. [Smiles at the countess.] COUNTESS
I told you how I met Sigmund Freud, when I was younger than
you are, and he was already . . . too old. Some time I'll tell you about
our sessions, though we talked more about his dreams than mine, some he'd described
in his Interpretation of Dreams. I tried to suggest ways he
might improve his dreams. I often analyze my own. You'd be surprised
at the lust in an old lady's dreams. You dream a lot, too, don't you, Jack?
SHOKO [Back to the present.] That's
right, Jack, You haven't told Henry your dream . . . the one you told us that
same day. That's the one I particularly wanted him to hear . . . because
of Christine. JACK I
remember it began very peacefully and realistically. I was in the garden walking
with Christine, or I was walking and she was running here and there. She'd
run and hide, then give herself away when she couldn't keep from laughing.
But here comes the bizarre part. She began to laugh in different voices.
Sometimes it would seem to be the countess laughing, or Shoko, or Laura, or Betty,
but then the simple laughter of the child herself again. It was as if they
were all playing the game, but, at first, whenever I traced the laughter to its
source, there was Christine. Then the garden turned surrealistic, the colors
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into one another, so that
instead of finding her in a bush, or behind a bench, she'd be sitting like a bee
in the middle of a flower, or enveloped in a drop of dew. Then her voice
came from a long ways off, still laughing, and calling me, but not calling "Daddy,"
calling "Jack." The voice was coming from a distance, and was a little indistinct,
but, while at first I'd let her play without looking too hard for her, I was now
seeking her quite diligently. I soon seemed to be in a kind of forest, and
was looking through trees in the direction from which I thought the voice was
coming, but couldn't even be sure about the direction. If anything, the
voice seemed to be coming from above. It was as if I were in Hudson's Green
Mansions, expecting an idealized Christine to appear through the branches
like a beautiful bird, taunting me with a brief glimpse, or a short burst of song.
But I didn't see her up above me, either. SHOKO
So by that time it was no longer very realistic.
JACK No. Then suddenly there
was a long straight path running through the forest as far as I could see--to
where it became completely dark--and clear at the end of that path was a spot
of white. It was that spot that was calling me . . . first in Christine's
voice, then Shoko's, then Betty's, then Laura's, then the countess's, or in a
mixture, or medley. It was as if they were all playing the game . . . using
Christine as medium. I was perplexed. I concentrated on that white
spot at the end of the alley of trees, as if it were a religious exercise, and
the spot began to move toward me. I didn't move--unlike Poe to Ulalume,
this living lady was to come to me. That white spot, which I took to be
the little dress Christine has been wearing a lot that week, got larger, and,
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when skipping, began calling, "Try to find me
. . . if you can, Jack." Then, as she got closer, I could see the red hair.
But something was also happening to the forest trail. It was changing into the
aisle of a theatre. Without looking behind me, I knew I was standing at
the front of the stage in Baker Auditorium, and that the girl coming toward me,
red hair flashing, in pristine innocence, was Betty--the Betty I saw coming down
that aisle when she came to audition for Pygmalion, the first time
I ever saw her. Elizabeth Fredricks, co ed . . . still calling to
me, in her medley of voices, to try to find her . . . as, somehow, I had never
managed to do. But no sooner was I sure of that than the picture began to
change again. The scene became the path leading up from the sea as Desdemona
arrives on Cyprus in the film version of Othello the countess made
in the early thirties. The woman was that Desdemona, the countess as she
appeared in that film, and I was Cassio waiting for her to arrive. Still
the red hair, still the white dress, still the pristine innocence, but generating
new lines of force as she approached. Finally, she was close enough to touch,
and held out her hand to me. That happens in the film--I watched it again
later to make sure. And, as she held out her hand, she said, "Try to find
me, Jack." But the voice was not the countess's voice. It was Betty's
voice . . . not the voice of that co-ed from years before, but the voice of the
woman who sat there at that moment, the mature actress with her years of theatre
experience. I reached out my hand like this to take the hand
offered by the woman in the vision, and woke up. Now what do you make of
that dream? SHOKO You
remembered it better than I thought you would. But I agreed with Betty then--and
still do. She said, "That's charming, Jack, but it makes too much sense
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too strong a plot line . . . compared to my dream."
Then the countess said, "Even so, Jack, I like the way you're beginning to believe
you can bring us together as one, that, in the image of Desdemona, you might find
the key to our mystery." HENRY And
you did use that Desdemona scene, didn't you, Jack? JACK
Yes, I did, and now Christine is old enough to play Desdemona
herself. And those other two redheads are gone. The similarities between
the Betty of our film and the countess as Desdemona was remarkable, but I didn't
have much to do with that. The voice was Betty's achievement, a worldliness,
or sophistication, but including the illusion of innocence. And finally
it was the ideal that informed the identity--the abiding reality of innocence--yes,
embodied by Christine. Betty, in her enthusiasm, boiled on ahead of me,
speculating about the psychology of the countess, and how she'd be able to embrace
it. She constantly brought my theorizing back to the task at hand, and her
own concept of what the countess must have been like when she was her age.
And I was getting very comfortable with my reincarnated wife . . . there in Shangri-La.
But, by a week or so after Betty had so casually seduced me, I had sketched a
plot outline, and sent it to Randall, so she knew how to get some useful work
out of me. A few days later Randall called and asked me to come in and talk.
As I entered his office, he jumped up to meet me, with that big smile.
RANDALL You see, Jack, I knew
that old woman would bring out the best in you. And how about our Betty?
This is starting to work, isn't it? Betty and Natasha . . . don't you agree?
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JACK
Then, on another one of those sunny afternoons, the whole mix
was suddenly changed again. The countess, Betty, and I were in the garden
when you came out of the house and told us we had a visitor, a man who said he
wanted to see "Betty Fredricks" . . . and also wanted to talk to "Mr.
John Curtis." COUNTESS Well,
bring him out here by all means. He can see both at once. JACK
Betty and I had begun speculating on who it might be when you
came back with Jordan in tow. She gasped--and I almost did. "My God
. . . Jordan! There you are!" I realized I hadn't seen him since before
Christine was born, and now here she came, a six-year-old, looking bewildered.
I instinctively looked at the two of them, to see if I could see his eyes, his
manner, anything, developing in the child--almost as if I wanted to.
SHOKO You're so perverse, Jack.
Look in the mirror some time. But that was the first time I'd met him.
I'd heard you talk about him--but was still surprised to see him there in person.
The countess wasn't awed, however. At least she didn't show it.
JACK Jordan got right to the point.
"Yes it has been a long time, Jack. It's good to see you looking so well,
and prospering in the movie business. But I'm here to take Betty back to
New York." Then, looking at her, "Back where she belongs, working in the
theatre." He smiled. "How'd you like to be Cleopatra? To my
Antony? Now, who do I have to fight?" With that, he looked directly
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